My Ex

Dear My Ex,
I can't believe you cheated on me and went out with my best friend.
I can't believe that you told me I was pretty and I overheard you saying that
I was ugly behind my back.
I can't believe you said you loved me but wasn't there when I needed you.
And I can't believe that there are people my age who have serious boyfriends and
can't see that guys are idiots and won't know the meaning of Love until 25.


From Deb.

Reflections of a person. not a mirror. humans can reflect too...pffft

Gaaa like i said in my previous previous previous previous post.
I feel so lucky
and so happy
at the moment
I almost feel like its going to end soon.
I know, thats pessimisstic, If i have something good,
I think it will end soon.
But then being optimistic would just be being unrealistic.
So i guess for now being realistic is being pessimisstic.
But don't get me wrong. There is always a bright side.
(I felt that was necessary to say in order to NOT agree
to a certain friend's way of life ;) )
So I had my first dance classes on Friday and they were AWESOME.
our routine is so cool! we called it the 'emo dance'. On saturday
netball was cancelled, very highly thankfully because when I woke up at
7:45 I was still dreaming when i called the hotline.
On sunday, went to youth group + service + ate pho. pho pho pho...sounds like
I"m attempting to same phone through a sneeze.
I don't know why i keep pressing 'enter' and making the format of my post retarded.
like me. Oh, and I"m doing the prayer in next week's youth group (scary)
and I still don't know whether i should row next year......decisions decisions....

The most beautiful people I know

Dear Friends and Family 

(gee that sounds like I'm giving a speech on speech day ...

HAHAHAH A SPEECH ON SPEECH DAY. ahem. anyway.)

You are beautiful, no matter what they say,

coz words can't bring yooooou down. nooooo,

so don't they bring you down..todayyy. 

[totally did not just rip that off christina agulaira's song]

okay. what i MEANT. to say was.

You may not be beautiful on the outside, but you're dam beautiful on the inside :)

JOKING!

because you're not a plum. plums are sour on the outside but sweet on the inside.

and especially not durians. otherwise i wouldn't be friends with you.

Because you guys are bananas! asian on the inside. and completely mental.

okay. i am in a really sarcastic kind of mood.

I apologise.

I did not mean what i said. please forgive me.

I regret comparing you to random fruit,

because really,

you guys are so awesome 

that only yourselves are a good enough comparison.

Oh, and another thing. please look after yourself.

Stay healthy. Exercise. Eat well.

Don't let anything get in the way of what you want to do.

Be determined.

and watch.

Dance Academy.

;)

Love Deb.

someone you see everyday but don't talk to

Dear my television,
I love you :)
you make me happy.
You show me the world of Dance Academy,
You give me inspiration,
You kill all my braincells,
but thats okay.


Deb

someone i would push off a cliff.

BELLA SWAN.

Your celebrity crush--OOOOH PICK ME PICK ME! i know who it is!

Dear Jordan Rodrigues,
You are very very very very VERY good looking.
Don't even try to deny it, because i am CERTAIN that you know it too.
I can't believe you were in lion king when you were 12, i am so jealous.
YOU'RE GOOD AT ACTING.
(you just HAD to be talented too)
I don't like it that you don't visit me, 
even though you film Dance Academy in Sydney, The rocks.
Thats not very nice of you. 


Love, Deb.

What am I seeing and how am I supposed to react?

These days I feel really lucky...like i have everything i could need or want...and i'm generally just so happy about my life...as in i just want to cry WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE because i feel like it...but i'm not sure what i'm supposed to do about it. I almost feel bad for being so lucky. My mum says i just have to be appreciative and thank God, and that is all i can really do. Can i share my luckiness? I wonder, and in conclusion. Yes it is possible, but no it isn't.

But i guess in all stages of life. we are extremely lucky. but we never notice, because we are tricked into thinking that it means having everything. Maybe being lucky is just having anything at all. At that is great, because I guess even if you are dead you have peace. And you are lucky.