Year 10 makes me tired.

its been ONE WEEK and i'm already dead.
DEAD.
not like ''dead'' but really i'm ok.
as in DEAD.
i feel like falling asleep every waking moment and
i'm still tired no matter how early i sleep.
i feel so weak that sickness is easily just around the corner
which i REALLY can not afford and ITS ONLY YEAR 10.
which MEANS
in year 11 and 12 after i died in year 10 i would have been
sent to hell to boil in my own blood untill i disintergrate from
dry bones into dust and then collect all my strength again
to make a skeleton again and somehow resurrect from hell
and back into the earth as a diseased woman who thinks that
she's a vampire and doesn't sleep but really dies because she needs it.

ANYWAY.
our group split...............................
i guess it was inevitable since as the numbers grow its harder
to be close to people you used to be.
but life moves on and i'd jus tlike to quote what i said on jo's fb status.

jo's status: shit happens
my reply:

Birthday Bliss

Yesterday was my b'day and it was AWESOME!!
thankyou anyone who wished me a happy birthday!! it made me smileee!!
special shout out for those of you who even gave me a prezzie!!
the frankie book and the gp voucher is SUPER thoughtful! i extremely love it!
and jane and annie for super cool stationery and carrie for the cloud journal!!
not only the gifts,
the day was in general..really fun! i had a yummy garlic chicken and salad lunch
and we only had one subject! (more importantly, that one subject wasn't maths)

on a side note, i've been inspired by jo to make goals!! i've been procrastinating but i think its time!

• get into japanese exchange
• grow in my christianity and try harder to apply things i learn into life rather than ignoring it
• PASS piano exam
• PASS musicianship exam
• NOT allow maccas or study make me stressed out or unhappy!
• be organised and start assignments at least a week before
• not fail in maths (impossible goal)
• reach 165 cm (impossible goal)

just as a note...i'm super happy because last year i had three goals:

• find a dance class and learn how to dance
• find a youth group that i want to stick with
• find a job

and they all came true!!
goodluck for your goals this year!!

something to say

this post is split in two.

first half.
spent last friday with carrie, it was awesome!
went to lane cove shops and chilled at gloria jeans for a surprisingly long time
each person comfortably settled sipping eagerly on a delicious tim tam crush
with a shot of coffee and sitting on big luxurious sofa seats. the room,
airconditioned and empty with a subtle tint of darkness made it the most perfect
place to...well...chill.
bought stargirl by jerry spinelli (i think that was the book everyone in year 6 read.)
jammed and carrie and i learnt 'somewhere over the rainbow' and realised jason
mraz isn't as good for ukelele and guitar as we thought it would be.

courtesy of carrie's pro camera.

failures and mistakes are the mother of success

above is what my dad taught me today, its an old chinese saying
basically today was my second shift and it was SUPER stressful
and SUPER tiring. i worked at quite a busy time (around 12-4) but
12 to 1 were the most busy!
I kept doing things wrong, and i didn't know how to do stuff
and customers complained, and there were customers waiting
and i felt like i hadn't been taught stuff
and bascically i was so overwhelmed and exhausted from
trying to do things right but failing but having to continue anyway
and deal with it in a matter of seconds for four hours that by the end of the shift
i HAD to order a chocolate shake with oreo topping.

i think thats my release. ordering unhealthy doses of maccas food.
i predicit in the future when problems get worse i'll just resort
to eating and buying a larger portion of unhealthy food and eating if after shifts.
i guess i'm just being teenagerish...but the truth is.
and this is the truth. i am a non-humble person and most thing i try
so far in life i generally succeed and i'm not that used to making so many mistakes.
yep. so i lived in a rock hard bubble. i told this to my dad and he said...
"well this world you're experiencing now, its closer to life"
unfortunately thats true... but i liked my cosy little bubble. too bad you can't go backwards.
but my title today, what my dad said, it did make me feel better.
and he said managers much rather you ask a lot of questions rather than none.
it shows you have initiative.
anyways.

yesterday carrie came over and it was SUPER FUN! we recorded
our cover of the song 'my time with you' by david choi and kinna grannis.
and being not humble....it actually sounds pretty good!

on monday i redecoed my room. basically started from scratch. so here it is! took about 2-3 hrss!

late new years

on new years:

• ate at a random chinese restaurant
• watched 9:00 fireworks at darling harbour which was AWESOME
• ate a smartie pushups at like 9:30pm
• took a tram back to car with my mum
• went home
• walked to a bridge near my house
• saw the 12:00 fireworks

this sounds super awkward and pedo-ish but i saw this cute couple kiss when the fireworks began
and it wasn't a really long pash but it was super cute. ok. awkward rant over.

and maccas!! was alright. there are HEAPS of buttons on the cashier and i had to wear pants 1000000 sizes too big ...at least i got a belt? i didn't leran that much..only how to make drinks and mcflurries :)

photos taken on 'fireworks' setting on camera...hope 2011 brings new and worthwhile experiences to you!

Three days of cool

Yeah. my 'original' title  basically sums up the following post:
Saturday (Christmas)

• ate yummy pancakes with blue berries, mango, nectarines and nutella (not at the same time)
• spent the whole day with sis and mum
• OPENEDD PRESENTSS!!
• got a:
• YELLOW UKELELE
• black and white printed flowy dress
• small blue clock
• AWESOME cookie mug (THANKS SO MUCH CARRIE!!)
• watched youtube videos with my sis (aka. bludged..its the dream....)
• practised piano! (well one song..but it was somewhat hardcore)
• ate a ROAST LAMB LEG WITH ROAST VEGETABLES AND GRAVYYY

 photo credit: carrie. my new ukelele! we call him: Big Ted

Sunday (boxing day)

• spent whole day with sis and mum!
• ate yummy milkybun and a nutella toast for brekky
• cooked noodles for lunch
• PLAYED UKELELE
• chuppee-by cocoon
• my time with you-david choi and kia grannis
• sure thing-miguel
• bludged in my sisters room watching her clean her room (fav. pasttime)
• cleand my room
• chopped pumpkin and potato with our new 'wasabi' SUPER PRO KNIFE!! mmm
• shoved stale oreos in the oven and they came out CRUNCHY and the white icing was EXTRA SMOOTH...try it ;)
• played more ukelele!!
• d&med with jie jie and mummy...sort of...

a little redeco with my new russian dolls! (thanks carrie!)

Monday (post boxing day)

• went to CITY WESTFIELD WITH MUM AND SIS
• visited david jones food court but didn't ea there...
• got super pissed for some reason...
• went to pro yum cha and pigged out!
• somewhat got over my angryness
• walked around the westfield
• IT IS SUPER AWESOME and is decorated like a museum
• sass and bide=yummy
• WENT TO HYPE and bought sandals!! 20% off! i've been eyeing them for afew months now...at first when i saw them they were like $120, then $109, then $80 and now got them for $64! (yeah i've been stalking the price tag for a while)
• went to max brennerrr!!
• caught a bus back to world square
• ate yet again at a yummy japanese place
• SHOCKING NEWS: i now officially eat more than my mum and sister. O.O
• played some more uke :)

do fries really come from france?

yeah. so this is a quick post!
so first of all
I GOT THE JOB AT MACCAS!
*does an embarrassingly non-tactful victory dance*
and secondly wow. i have a lot to think about!!
there are so many good things as well as some bad things
as well as some other things. I think (you see? another thought there)
thoughts are like neverending. they're unlimited. there are literally no
boundaries. like for example, thinking about a girl in a yellow dress
eating ice cream
thats melting while five and a half ants eat the melted part
and a flower on the other side of the universe is dying of heatstroke
while a bunny rabbit piggy backs a robin which poos on an imaginary
beehive that naked mole rats live in while drinking a concoction of
blood orange and cough syrup.

REALLY RANDOM. but yeah. i wonder if anyone has thought that before....
as creepy
and scary
as it sounds. i think it is these few years where I develop who I am....
and I'm learning more about the world around me.
my bubble is somewhat popped and i'm learning to accept (whilst sometimes complaining)
about this WORLD. but of course i'll continue to do this untill i die.
the world holds so much knowledge.
its like.
ther internet.
which is like thoughts + the world= DOUBLE WHAMMY!!!!!!!

anyway. too many complex thoughts.
I'll end with this. something nice and simple that i made up afew days ago.

DON'T LET THE WORLD EAT YOU. EAT THE WORLD.